Well, it's official..I have officially forgotten who I am.
I smile over things that Steph doesn't smile over. I laugh when Steph wouldn't of. I get mad when Steph would've laughed it off. & I cry...not as often..when Steph would've. I don't know who I'm becoming but, I'm pretty sure it's not me..Not even close. I've started to become absolutely rude & can't keep my thoughts to myself. I need shot in the head & that's also another disturbing thought, I don't get disturbed when I think about that & why am I thinking that in the first place? I have gone absolutely instane. I'm losing me & I love me..not being conceited. I love God & I just don't think this is who He wants me to be. So I'm stuck on 1 question. How do I change? I've been praying, thinking, trying to figure out how but, I'm still stuck.
Oh Steph Alderson, where have you gone? I miss you... I miss the you that was able to laugh off everything, instead of getting highly offended. Whom are you to get offended? I miss the you where you were nice to Everybody. Please come back.
Steph Alderson
I love my God!
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