:) When I say Forever, Forever's what I mean!!

Today was good..:)
I pretty much hung w/ the fam & kass all day, 'til she left. &
I wish I could've went to church but, I know better than to complain & whine. It won't get me anywhere in life. If God wants me to go to church, then he'll find me away to go but, that doesn't mean I won't continue to try to talk mother into it. :) Hehe
God is great!! I just wish I didn't have to make this a private blog but, I did so that's life. I didn't want my sister reading my posts & If me talking completly to myself is how it's gotta be then so be it. I love you Lord!! Thank you for helping me through this life. For giving me strength, wisdom, for loving me everyday...For simply creating me!! You are my hero!! You are my life!! I love you!:)

Steph Alderson
"I never make a promise, I don't intend to keep, so when I say forever, Forever's what I mean!"

Why won't my heart stop breaking over something so stupid? Pull it together Steph, Pull it together!! He's not worth it. Only your amazing Heavenly Father & amazing Brother, Jesus is worth it!:)

New Years Resolutions - Unfinished. :)

New Years Resolutions -
1. Don't over apologize.
2. Keep getting closer to God
3. Smile more:)
4. Laugh more
5. Get my parents to go to church. :P
6. Keep having Amy read her Bible Stories
7. Become a better person through God.
8. Control my thoughts
9. Stop participating in Gluttony. No more midnight snacks! :)
10. Control my jealousy.
11. Get closer to the fam


& More to come............

Can't Stop Believing.. :)

I finally got back to reading in my Bible, ha, took me long enough. :) Got yelled at for reading in it. Just flippin' fantastic. Can't talk about it, Can't ask about it, & Now I can't read about it. But, ya can't stop me from living & thinking & loving. :)& Ya can't make me stop believing!! So, ha! The loss is yours. Besides, I have more than 1 Bible. :D Lol
& Anyways, life is great!:)

6 more days til Christmas!!
I think I may actually like snow this year.. :)

God is great!!!!!

Steph Alderson

Finally Facing Reality With a Smile On Her Face! ..A real post.

Life has been wonderful lately. I've finally faced my fears & have gotten more fears than I had. Lol But, I will face them too! Haha :P & I'm a little confused about my heart right now but, I guess, I'll face that too. Through God, Everything is Possible!! :) Yeah Buddy!! Lol I formed a morphed opinion on gay rights & then was corrected. Thank goodness, I don't know what I was thinking. Actually I sorta do,, Family First. But, that's not right. It should be God First!
My dreams have gotten bigger lately...Flying my own helicopter, skydiving, bunji jumping..seriously, I just want to get into the air & do something that will make my heart race. That is what brings me great joy. Sitting around watching tv, that's not Steph Alderson. I like to have fun & As soon as I graduate, this chick is going to make her dreams come true. Who knows, I might even get married? Ha, one problem though, the one person I would ever marry..well, yeah. No can do because they probably don't feel the same. & Since that is the turn out, I will do what I need to practice..Be Patient. God has a plan for me. I think this is part of the plan & I guess I will just keep going & Find out. I love you God!! You are just soo amazing! :)

I've been praying for my sister, she was recently diagnosed with diabetes. Ahh. God will help her through this. She may not believe in the things I do but, God believes in her & loves her. He will protect her. I know He will. Wanna know why, Because I serve one Amazing God!! :)


Steph Alderson
Finally Facing Reality...

Yeahhhhh..

You ready for a long survey that actually has some new questions?

Suuure.



Who's your last text from?

haha

And what did it say?

haha


In the last 6 months can you say you cared about someone?

I always care about people.



Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
Hello.


Ever had a girl best friend?

Mhm!



Have you ever had a best friend?
Yeah


Do you wear eyeliner?
Yeah


Do you think things will change in the next few months?
Probably


Was last night terrible?
Yeahh


Is it hard to hold your tears in at times?

If I need to cry, it doesn't matter where I'm at, I'm going to cry.

Lol



Do you like to spend time with people?

yeah


Is anything wrong?

yeahh


What was on your mind mostly today?

Hahahaha,
wish I could tell you.


Do you want to see somebody right now?
Yeah

Do people ever think you're older / younger than you actually are?
yep


Favorite song?
Idk

Could you go a day without cursing?
Yes

Think of the last person who said “I love you” to you; do you think they meant it?
Yeah


When did you last eat McDonald's?
idk


What are you gonna do after this?

I don't know.



Do you fall for people easily?
No


If you are sitting on the porch and see an ant, do you squash it?
NO.


How do you feel right now?
Confused.


Do you know anyone named Holly?

Yesm!



Do you feel bad about anything that has happened today?

Not particularly.



What was the last thing you had to drink?
Coke


How is your last ex doing?

I don't actually know. We haven't talked in awhile.



Who is the last person you promised something?
Hahahaha:)


Have you ever given up on someone, but then went back to them?

Yes.



Are you happier now than you were five months ago?

Not exactly.



Does it bother you when people respond with one word texts?

Yes because it makes me feel like they don't want to talk to me. Ha...



Are you afraid to fall in love?

yes


Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

I did not.



Who are you texting?

no1 now


Are your fingernails painted?

yep


Is there a song that reminds you of someone every time you hear it?

Yess! (:



Do you want kids?
yes


Do you like Miley Cyrus?

Not particularly.



How many people do you trust with your life?
2

Who did you sleep with last night?

Me! (:



Who were the last 3 people you sent text messages to?

jacob, carley, & dfafd

Is anyone with you right now?

I'm aaaaall by my-seeeelf,





Have you ever kissed anyone who's name starts with D, T, E, C, J?

no


Do you always answer your phone?

Most of the time. Unless they have been annoying me.



Someone phones you at 3:00 AM. Who do you expect it to be?

Nobody I know because they all know I'd be pretty upset

to be awoken at such early morning.!



If your most recent ex said they hate you, you say?
Thanks:)

What is on your bed right now?

Pillows, Blankets, Sheets, chocolate chips..


What were you doing at 11:10 pm last night?

Readingg:)


Don't you hate waiting for someone to show up somewhere?

It's like you know me. Haha.



What makes you happy?

There is very little that harshes my mellow. (:



Who will be the first person you call tomorrow?

Probably won't call anyone tomorrow.



Do you have a best friend to lean on?

Uhm, I actually like to keep my personal feelings, personal.



What was the weather like today?

decent:)

Are you heartless?

No.



Do you think two people can last forever?

Yes I do.



What’s so special about what you’re wearing?

Nothing. Haha. (:



What are you looking forward to?

Graduation. Being let free. Getting out of the states.


Last movies you saw in theaters?

The Tourist

Does it take a lot to make you happy?

Not so much.



Do you regret your last kiss?

yeah


When was your last kiss?
hahah


Is anything bugging you right now?
yeap

Will you be in a relationship next month?

Who's to say?



Has this been the best year of your life?
In a way, yeah but last year was better... lol


Does your password have to do with a boy/girl?

No,



What were you doing at 12am last night?

I waaaas sleeeepin'. (:



Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?

Yeahh!



When was the last time you were annoyed with someone?
today when iz textn .lol


Would you ever get your hips pierced?

I didn't know you could get hips pierced...and no...i would not :P



Have you ever slept in the same bed with anyone on your top friends?

I don't have top friends...so I wouldn't know lol



How old will you be turning on your next birthday?

16..


.

Confessionzzz

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
Dependz who it iz.
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
short
3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
dependz who it iz from
4. Group dates or single dates?
single
5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
oh flippn yeah!
6. Are diamonds a girls best friend?
Not Mine!!
7. Is your hair up or down today?
Upp
8. Do you straighten your hair?
When I feel like it
9. Favorite mascara?
CoverGirl - Extra Dark, Waterproof.
10. Do you get your nails done?
Heck to da no, fool!!
11. Small or large purses?
Small
12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Deodrant, ankle brace, candy, gum, wallet, keys, cellular phone, pen, & a note saying smillleee!:)
13. Jeans or sweats? sweatz!
14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry thats uncomfortable? nope
15. Do you text message a lot?
Nahh
16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
I would take full responsibilty. If I get pregnant, it's bc I want to.
17. Whats your favorite color?
Blue, & Hazel.
18. Heels or flats?
Flatz
19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
You caught me...
20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
Only to get the mail.
21. Walmart or Target?
wally world
22. Do you wear collared shirts?
ick
23. Do you like preppy boys?
Nope.
24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
NO!
25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Heckzz no.
26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
35min. sharp.
27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
uhh?
28. Do you like skater boys?
No
29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
Yeahh..
30. Gold or silver? )
Silver
31. Do you like to receive flowers?
guess so.
32. Do you like surfer boys?
No.
33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
no.
34. Do you like to wear dresseses?
no.
35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
10
36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
yep
37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
yep
38. Do you like to hold hands?
nope
39. What is the youngest you would date?
15.
40. What is the oldest you would date?
Idk.
41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
Eyes & how much they smile.
42. Is it hot when guys sweat?
Idc.
43. What is the best feature in a guy?
Eyes
44. Do you like making eye contact?
Yes, In fact, I do.
46. Would you kill for chocolate?
yeah
47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
no.
48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
0
49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
nah
50. Do you yell a lot?
If it's needed.. yeahh all the time::D:D
51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
occasionally.
52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
nope. take it as it is loser! :)
53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
nahh
54. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
eyeliner.
55. Do you fall in love easily?
Do I?
56. Do you have cramps?
When good 'ole uncle tom visits.
57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?
No

I'm Worth 1,885 Dollars

Put an X for the ones that apply to you, and add up the total as you go along.

Natural Hair Color:
[ ]Redhead – $80
[ ]Brunette – $75
[x ]Blonde – $50
[ ]Black – $15
[ ]Bald – $5
[ ]other-$0

Total So Far: $50

Eye Color:
[ x]Blue – $100
[ ]Green – $75
[ ]Brown – $50
[ ]Hazel – $25
[ ]Other – $15

Total So Far: $150

Height:
[ ]Over 7′ – $200
[ ]6’8? to 7′ – $175
[ ]6’0? to 6’7? – $150
[ ]5’5? to 5’11? – $75
[x ]5’0? to 5’4? – $45
[ ]Under 5′ – $25

Total So Far: $195

Age:
[ ]30 to 40 – $100
[ ]25 to 30 – $75
[ ]20 to 25 – $50
[ ]18 to 20 – $25
[x ]0 to 18 – $15
Total So Far: $210

Current Education:
[ ]PhD – $500
[ ]Masters – $450
[ ]Business Owner – $800
[ ]Bachelors – $400
[ ]Associates – $350
[ ]In College – $300
[ ]High School Graduate – $250
[x ]In High School – $200
[ ]High School Dropout – $100
[ ]Jr. High – $50
[ ]What is School – $Bankrupt$

Total So Far: $410

Birth Order:
[ ]Twins or more than twins – $300
[ ]Only Child – $250
[ ]First Born – $200
[x ]second born-$150
[ ]Middle Child – $100
[ ] last Born – $50
[ ]Other – $40

Total So Far: $560

Drink?
[ x]Never – $300
[ ]Only Holidays – $250
[ ]Sometimes – $200
[ ]Every other week – $150
[ ]Every other day – $50
[ ]Once a day – $15

Total So Far: $860

Vision?
[ x] No correction $75
[ ] Glasses $50
[ ] Contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction $10

Total So Far: $935

Car Color:
[ ]Gold – $525
[ ]Blue – $500
[ x]White – $475
[ ]Black – $450
[ ]Red – $400
[ ]Maroon – $400
[ ]Green- $350
[ ]Silver – $300
[ ]Purple- $250
[ ]Metallic – $200
[ ]Yellow – $100
[ ]Primer – $75
[ ]Rusted – $15
[ ]No Car – $5

Total So Far: $935 plus 475 = $ 1410

Shoe Size:
[ ]13+ – $300
[ ]11 to 12 – $200
[ ]8 to 10 – $100
[x ]Under 7 – $50

Total So Far: $1460

Room Color:
[ ]Black – $500
[ ]Blue – $475
[ ]Brown – $450
[x ]Purple – $425
[ ]White – $400
[ ]Green – $350
[ ]Orange – $300
[ ]Yellow – $200
[ ]Pink – $100
[ ]Other – $ 50

Total: $1,885

Important Peepz In the Life of Steph.

Name 3 guys that are regulary in your life: Kaleb, Coach, & Randy.
How many of them are family?:1
How many of them are exes?: 0
Are any of them single?: 2
Are any of them gay?: no
Are any of them younger than you?: 1
Who’s the tallest?: coach
Who’s the smartest?: coach
Who’s the oldest?: coach
Who’s the most talkative?: coach
Who’s the most sensitive?: kaleb
Who’s the most relaxed?: ???
Who’s the biggest player?: Like what do you mean?
Who drinks the most?: Kaleb!! Lol
Can any of them drive?: 1
Can any of them dance?: 1 i think.
Can any of them sing?:ha yeah, 1.
Can any of them hold conversation? all 3.
Have you ever kissed any of them?: Randy ( my bro) :)
Have you ever cuddled any of them?: Ick, Heck to da no!
Have you ever argued with any of them?: Every one of them. :)
Have you ever had a fight with any of them really?: Randy!!
Have you ever seen any of them cry?: Yepp
Have you ever seen any of them bleed?: Ha, yeah.
Have you ever seen any of them drunk?: Nope
Have you ever seen any of them high?: Nope
Have any of them ever made you jealous?: No
Are there any of them you would swap for a celebrity?: By Kaleb!! Haha jk

Name 3 girls regulary in your life: Bailo, Katiebugz, Amy
Are any of them family?: 1
Are any of them crushes?: No
Are any of them exes?: no
Are any of them single?: all 3.
Who’s the prettiest?: Uhh, They're all pretty.. :D
Who’s the most popular with boys?: Amy. most def! Lol
Who’s the smartest?: Uhmm, Idk.
Who’s the ditziest?: Bailo
Who’s the friendliest?: Kate
Who’s the bitchiest?: ....
Who’s the easiest to talk to?: Amez
Who’s the best drinker?: Idk
Who’s the most innocent?: Amy
Can any of them dance?: 1
Can any of them not swim?: 1
Can any of them drive?: 2
Have you ever cuddled any of them?: ick no
Have you ever kissed any of them?: noooo
Have you ever gone further with any of them?: nopeee
Have you ever told any of them that you love them?: as a friend
Have you ever argued with any of them?: every 1 of em
Have you ever had a fight with any of them?: yepp
Have you ever seen any of them cry?: all 3.
Have you ever made any of them cry?: 1.
Have you ever seen any of them drunk? nope
Have you ever seen any of them high?: no
Have you ever been jealous of any of them?: noo
Have you ever been scared of any of them?: no
Do you love any of them?: all 3!

25 Things You Probably Didn't Know About Me. :)

25 Random Things

I’ve tagged you in this note becuase I want to know more about you.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you must write a note with 25 random things, facts, habbits, or goals about yourself. At the end, tag 25 of your facebook friends in the note. Remember to tag the person who tagged you in their note.

To do this, click on notes on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner), then click publish.

Write your 25 random things, facts, habbits or goals about yourself here:


1. I love God!!:)
2. I am obsessed with stromboli.
3. Mexican & Italian Food is the Best Food.
4. I love to smile...shh:)
5. I secretly have a crush on Rotnei Clarke.. :D Haha
6. 5 & 15 are my favorite numbers.
7. Blue is a beautiful color but, I hate it because my coach likes it.
8. I want to coach but, sometimes I want to do something bigger like become a pilot, lawyer, or work w/ FBI..stupid I know but, it's always been in my thoughts.
9. I have a habbit of saying sorry... Sorry. :D
10. I think meat is good. I aint no vegetarian!
11. I really know half the stuff I pretend not to know. I learned early that people don't like talking to people who seems to know all about what they're talking about.
12. I kind of like laughing.. KINDA? Haha:D
13. Razorbacks are my favorite team!
14. I have no best friend..lost of really great friends but, no best.
15. People that inspire me: Rotnei Clarke, Chuck Norris, Coach, Soldiers, Uncle J, my Family, Holly, Amelia Earhart, Zola Budd, Mark Martin, Mike Lupica that sums it up.
16. I have a secret addiction to tacos...
17. I honestly am not a peanutbutter kinda girl.
18. ..I believe in fairytales.
19. I believe going for your fairytale instead of being afraid.
20. Running Cleanses The Mind & Soul.
21. I'm living my life for God.
22. I want to fly a helicopter or plane so badly. :) Lol
23. I truly do want to go skydiving, I'm not being sarcastic...It's something I will do if I have the opportunity.
24. Rock Climbing & Ziplining are things I plan on doing often after I'm outta school.
25. I have no intentions what so ever to stay in the state I am in. I want to get out of here & be on my own, get out of my comfort zone, have some fun, & who knows? I might even find that fairytale. Highly unlikely though because I seem have not been impressed that much, ever. Lol

Innocent & Guilty...

RULES:
1. You can only say Innocent or Guilty for each question.
2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
3. You must be honest!




Asked someone to marry you? Innocent
Kissed one of your Facebook friends?Guilty
Danced on a table in a bar? Innocent
Ever told a lie? Guilty
Had feelings for someone who you can’t have? Guilty
Ever had feelings for your friend’s bf/gf? Guilty
Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Innocent
Kissed a picture? Guilty
Slept in until 5 PM? Guilty
Fallen asleep at work/school? Guilty
Held a snake? Guilty
Been suspended from school? Innocent
Worked at a fast food restaurant? Innocent
Stolen from a store? Innocent
Been fired from a job? Innocent
Done something you regret? Guilty
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Innocent
Sat on a roof top? Guilty
Kissed someone you shouldn’t have? Guilty
Sang in the shower? Guilty
Been on the best website for cool facebook stuff - facebookcraze.com? Guilty
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? Guilty.
Shaved your head? Innocent
Slept naked? Innocent
Had a gym membership? Innocent
Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Guilty
Been in a band? Innocent
Donated Blood? Innocent
Still love someone you shouldn’t? Guilty
Have a tattoo? Innocent
Liked someone, but will never tell who? Guilty
Been too honest? Guilty
Ruined a surprise? Guilty
Erased someone in your friends list? Guilty
Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if your a guy) or man’s clothes (if your a girl)? Guilty
Had communication with your ex? Guilty
Got so angry that you cried? Guilty
Stolen somebodies partner? Innocent
Made yourself throw up? Innocent
Wanted to be someone else? Guilty

The Basics of Steph... Prepare to Be Epicly Amazed. :D

The Basics:
Name: Steph Alderson
Age:15
School:Hmmm..
Nationality: Hmm...
Hobbies:Basketball,running, smiling:)

Love Life:
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: NOpe
Do you like someone?: yep
Does anyone like you?: ick, yeah.
Have you ever kissed anyone?: ick, yep
Hugged anyone in the past week?: yeah:)

Friendships
Who is your best friend?: Hmm...Don't know.
Where did you meet them?: Don't know
Did you lose any friends this year?:Yep, but God obviously didn't want them in my life, 'least not right now.
Gain any?: yeah:)
Meet a special friend?: Special? As in?
Did you hang out with any friends in the past week?: Yeah! Moviezz :)

New Years Eve
Did you do anything at midnight?: Yeah buddy.
Who did you spend it with?: Ha, you just wish u knew!!
Did you have any resolutions?: Why, yes. :)

Valentines Day
Did you have a Valentine?: Nope, & I'm not ashamed. :) Just cuz I ainta
whore doesn't mean I don't have fun. :)
Did you send out any cards/chocolates/etc?: Yeap:)
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend on this day?: Nope :)

Summer
Did you go on vacation?: yep
Did you hang out on the beach with friends?: nope
How long was your summer break?: idr
Did you get a tan?: ha, no!
Did you have a boyfriend/girlfriend during the summer?: Yeah, part of it.

Halloween
Did you go trick or treating?: Yepp
If so, who did you go with?: Kass
Did you dress up?: Nope
Was it fun?: Yes ma'am.

Christmas
Who did you spend it with?: Fam..or least fixn 2.
Did Santa come to your house?: Santa, my friend isn't real. :)
Did you stay up until midnight on Christmas Eve? Uhh, duhh:)

Your Birthday
Who did you spend it with?: Me, Myself, & I.
What did you do?: What do I always do?
What did you get?: Hmm? You'd like to know.
When is it?: Hmmm...

Have You Ever: (Yes or No)
Kissed someone: yes
Hugged someone: yes
Electricuted yourself: no
Climbed more than 60 feet: yes
Made a Youtube video: no
Lied to a loved one: few timez.
Had a nosebleed: why, yes.
Gotten airsick: nope
Been so bored, you just ate food: ha, you know me!
Not brushed your teeth for a day: ...I was at the hospital so yeah.
Not showered for a day: Everyone has.
Drank alchohol: No, that I haven't.
Smoked: Nope, I have indeed never smoked.
Tried drugs: No ma'am.
Had a pet: Yeahhh
Ran a marathon: Nope:(
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend: Yes

5 Do’s
1. Do you play any instruments?: Ya
2. Do you play any sports?: Bball, Track, XC,
3. Do you believe in 2012?: I believe it is our future & to predict our future is to predict our lives. Impossible.
4. Do you like cheese?: Yes!!!!!!
5. Do you honestly like Obama?: Why shouldn't I?

4 If’s
1. If you get $1 Million for breaking up with your boyfriend/girlfriend, would you?:
If I'm dating some1 I really like them, so No I prob. would not.
2. If you were to get $50,000 for killing a rat, would you?:
No, I have to much pride to get money for killing an innocent animal.
3. If you were to choose between your best friend and your brother/sister, who would you choose?: I would do as God wants me to...
4. If you were to choose between coke/pepsi or sprite/7up, which would you choose?:
Sprite.
3 How’s
1. How old do you want to be when you get married?: 20z
2. How many siblings do you have?: 4
3. How did your last Christmas go? Good

2 When’s
1. When did you have your first kiss?: ha. u wish u knew.
2. When did you last have a piece of cake?: The other day! :)

1 What
1. What would you say if the guy/girl you like right now kissed you?:
:) Smile, as always!

Steph Alderson=God! Breaking Bones= satono.

Hello! I'm Steph Alderson. Incase you've forgotten, I'm having strong feelings some have, I'm a short blonde full of giggles who could really careless what anyone thinks of her. You don't think I'm cute? funny? A good person? Well, I got newz for ya, I'm EXACTLY how God made me & Well, me & my Heavenly Father..we got this deal where I'm living this life for Him & I aint breaking my deal. Sorry!! Now you know me! :D

That weird stalker people whom are reading my blog, is my first step to finding Steph Alderson! Hahahah & Guess what!! I FOUND MYSELF! Yeah that's right, I'm crazy, weird, a lunatic, but, I'm God's weird, crazy, lunatic, daughter!! So YEAHHH BUDDYY!!:) Sticks & stones may break my bones but, God is the only one who can hurt me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & He aint gunna! So give. it. up, satano!

I love you God!!:)
Steph Alderson

I love my Heavenly Father!! God! He's the king of kings, almighty!! I love Him with all my heart & believe it or not, this little thing called life...Yeah I'm living it for an amazing He called God! :)

"Early in the morning, I will celebrate the light And as I stumble through the darkness, I will call Your name by night..God of wonders, beyond our galaxy, you are holy, holy..The universe declares your majesty, You are holy, HOLY! ♥" I ♥ my God!!!!(:

"If praise is like perfume, I'll lavish mine on you, Till every drop is gone, I'll pour my love on you!!" God is amazing!!!:) ♥ ♥ ♥

♥ "Lord I want my life to be the song You sing, Until the whole world hears Lord we are calling out, Lifting your name up for all to hear the sound, Like voices in the, wilderness we're crying out, as the day draws near, we'll sing until the whole world hears!!!" ♥ My God is awesome!:)

"Wherever you are, No matter how far, God I’m gonna find my way to you, Through rivers of rain, Over mountains of pain, Do whatever on earth I’ve gotta do, I’ll follow the dream I’ll follow my heart.." I ♥ my amazing God:)

"The sun shall be no more thy light by day; neither for brightness shall the moon give light unto thee: but the Lord shall be unto thee an everlasting light, and thy God thy glory." Isaiah 60:19 ♥

♥ "He knows my name, Every step that I take, Every move that I make, Every tear that I cry, He knows my name, When I'm overwhelmed by the pain, And can't see the light of day, I know I'll be just fine, 'cause He knows my name." (:

I love my God! He is my everything & even though I seem to be struggling lately, I know for a gosh darn fact, God is holding my hand through this! He's got my back! He knows I'll get through this. He'd never put anything in my hands that I can't handle. He is just so amazing! & Maybe that's my answer... Maybe, instead of trying to figure this out myself, I should talk to God, continue talking to God, instead of moping around feeling sorry for myself! God is fantastic! God is undescribable!

I love you God, Thank you for EVERYTHING! :)

Steph Alderson

Losing Steph Alderson...

Well, it's official..I have officially forgotten who I am.
I smile over things that Steph doesn't smile over. I laugh when Steph wouldn't of. I get mad when Steph would've laughed it off. & I cry...not as often..when Steph would've. I don't know who I'm becoming but, I'm pretty sure it's not me..Not even close. I've started to become absolutely rude & can't keep my thoughts to myself. I need shot in the head & that's also another disturbing thought, I don't get disturbed when I think about that & why am I thinking that in the first place? I have gone absolutely instane. I'm losing me & I love me..not being conceited. I love God & I just don't think this is who He wants me to be. So I'm stuck on 1 question. How do I change? I've been praying, thinking, trying to figure out how but, I'm still stuck.

Oh Steph Alderson, where have you gone? I miss you... I miss the you that was able to laugh off everything, instead of getting highly offended. Whom are you to get offended? I miss the you where you were nice to Everybody. Please come back.

Steph Alderson


I love my God!

Apologizing for Awesomeness.

Apologizing for Awesomeness
Yesterday,
I was upset, distant, & over used words. For that, poor person who has no idea who I am, I apologize. That's what happens when I am alone long enough to think of my future & what God has planned for me. But, right now, I am happy!:) I have school tomorrow & I get to hang out with my "gangzta bestiez" Bailo & Katiebugz!! :P Lol & then we got a library club trip after school & we're going to da moviez & out 2 eat & we got a funny plan so I'm phsyced. Lolz But, still...I apologize for being depressed...That was the devil trying to bring me down..that happens often.

Well, off to watch Desperate Housewives....

Btw, I apologize...a lot. :)


Steph Alderson
God is great!:)

Clueless Child...:)

Facing Reality...

I've became a dream, always shooting way past the starts, crushing on people who were so sure of who they are, I try to be strong, & keep growing closer with God, lately I've felt fake, felt more and more like a fraud. My bestiez annoy me, make me want to scream, I play basketball but, I feel like I have no team. We play together, quite well at that but the truth is the after fact. Who does the Lord want me to be? Are my dreams truly a fantasy? Being judged by people, who have no idea who I am. My school bag is messy, everything so crammed. Who are you to read this and think you know me? Who am I to not want you to see? I'm a girl...with so many thoughts, beliefs, and dreams. A girl who so very often lately, wants to yell and scream. My best friend, my coach, they all seem to kid around. What they haven't realized is how much lately, they've brought me down. I may smile but, lately I have thoughts that are mean, I'm turning into one of those so far-off teens. Why can't I think..Why can't I reason? Everywhere I go, it feels like my heart is changing season. You think you know me? You know who I am?

This is me depressed...Not giving a crap...Feeling like Kabaam!
What am I to do? What am I to say? Want to know what makes me feel this way? Being home, like now, I feel all alone. No one agrees with my plans for my future..Everyone things I should stay. Who are you? Who are they?

Dear Lord,
please don't let my heart feel like this again tomorrow or any other day..

Please you invisible guns that keep shooting me in the head... Leave before you make my already beaten heart turn a different shade...of red. Otherwise known as, dead..



Steph Alderson
As depressed as can be...
My God is still great though! He will give me strength and heal my heart!! He will put all this pieces back in order! I love you Lord!!:) Love, your daughter. Please make me laugh and smile.. Turn me back into that clueless child. Ha, I'm already feeling a little better...:)

The Anti-Introduction....

I could try to do some fancy introduction, I could tell you the highlights of my life..or I could tell you a few basic things & you can try to figure out who I am throughout my blog. Everyone is so quick to judge, If I was to try to explain myself to you, you wouldn't listen, you would judge from what you think...Because that is how people are. So hey, I'm Steph Alderson. I'm a teenage girl, blue-eyed girl, who loves running, basketball, laughing, smiling, God, and so on. But who I am? If you really want to know, keep reading my blog and find out for yourself.

Prepare to visit every depth of my being. & No, I don't mean this in a perverted way. Because, I am no pervert...just a girl who seems to keep dreaming to big for things to big... A girl who just wants an fairytale..& not in the icky lover way...I mean in the peace & love & simpleness... Reality bites.

& You are now entering the mind of Steph Alderson. You don't like what you read? Don't read it. I'm sure when you see something you don't like, you stop looking at it so why stop now?




Steph Alderson